#74

I must write. Two days I didn’t write. Devil defeated me. But I want to wake up. I mustn’t give up. I should write here whatever happen to me. Must be. I must train myself.

 

My brother, really, life is learning. We will find so many knowledges in our lifes. But eventhough very many knowledges that come to us we can’t understand it well. We can’t take learning from it. So this way, people who don’t understand well about a knowledge from their life, they will not pass the exam from God well.  They will be failure in His exam.

May we can take learning from anything that happen in our life. Ameen.

Surabaya, January 16, 2016

#73

Alhamdulillah finally I write here. Verily, today I got warrior, war with myself, nafs (desire) and devil. I hope I can save. It is strugle for me. Really it is not easy. It is really difficult. I hope I can be safe.

Life is strugle and war. War with desire and devil. If we are win, we will get glort, but if we are loss, we will get badness in our life.

My brother, there are two things in our life: godness and badness. We should be in goadness more than badness. We should minimize badness and maximilize googness.

May we can. Ameen.

Surabaya, January 13, 2016

#72

Alhamdulillah my brother, I write again. I decide writing here eventhough I have many assignments/tasks from my lecturers. Why do I choose to write here? I don’t know exactly. But I feel that I need to write here before I continoue to do my assignment. My be it is sign that I can write here everyday until 31 of January. May be. I hope. :)

My brother, I think,  eventhough I write here it doesn’t mean that I disturb my schedule to finish my assignments. It also can help me to focus in good thing so I don’t fall down in bad thing. Because if I am in bad thing, I will not get big spirit to do my assignment. I will be lazy. But by writing here, inshaAllah I will get new spirit and inspiration. :)

My brother, I should give the best in all of conditions. If I am in bad condition I should do the best as I can. The comparison is not other people. The comparison is also not by myself when I am in good condition. But the comparison is with my self when I am in same condition (“bad condition”).

My brother, I want to write again here (because may be I have written about this) that Allah doesn’t look our result, but Allah look our prosess and our effort. So, we should maximilize goodness and minimize bad thing (or delete the bad thing) as possible as we can.

May we can do that. Ameen.

Surabaya, January 12, 2016