#60

Alhamdulillah my brother, I write again. I hope I can write here frequently. I also hope, I can write here until I die. I hope, I don’t stop my activity to write here. I hope. 

My brother, I got inspiring word from my friend some days ago. He gave comment when I talked about my theses planning. He said that creating theses is world thing, so we should not think that it is big thing in our mind. It is not hereafter thing. If we feel that world thing is very heavy and we are sad in facing it, so there is problem in our sprituality. We should repent to Him and say “astaghfirullah” many things.

MasyaAllah, may we can prefer hereafter than world, so when we face world thing we should not be sad and think it deeply. It is only world thing. Something that we should think deeply and we affraid is hereafter thing. How if we die today? Are we ready to face it? Are we sure that we will enter to heaven? Are we ready?

Surabaya, December 31, 2015

#59

My brother, I want to write here that spreading advantage to others is very important. By spreading advantages, we can  do Rasullah pbuh command, “Khorun naas anfa’uhum linnnas”, “best people is who spread advantages to others”. Beside that, we also will get happiness in our life. 

Spreading advantages can be done by giveing other people money, can be by giving them property, by writingf, help others using our powers, etc. The most important we spread advantages to others eventhough by different ways.

But I want also to tell that spreading advantages is not only done to people, but also to animal, plants, and all of creatures.

Now, I want to write here that I have vission in this life. What is my vission? My vission is spreading advantages (billion or more)  to others”.

It is my vission. So this way, I have “azzam” (strong willing) to write here frequently since today. If I can, I will write every day. I hope I can. Ameen.

Surabaya, December 30, 2015

#58

Alhamdulillah, finally I can write here. Really, I am so happy when I write here. Why? Because writing here is not easy. It is depend on my heart. If my heart wants, so I will write. But if my heart doesn’t want, so I will not write.

My brother, I have finished reading a novel that’s written by Habiburrahman el-Shirazy or kang Abik. In that novel he told about life of Badiuzzaman Said Nursi from Turkey. Subhanallah, masyaAllah. When I read his life I want to follow him but it is very difficult. Almost imposible. 

He is very smart. He is genius. He can memorize what he read eventhough only read once. He can dominate many books only 3 months, but for other people need 15 years to understand it. He also don’t only study about hadits, fiqih, etc but also about technology, etc.

But something amazing that I get, he keep himself from girls very carefully. He never look girls face for keeping his heart and his knowledge. He ever stay for at about 2 years in one of government official house, but he doesn’t know his daughters face. He very keep ghaddul bashor. MasyaAllah.

Then I look myself. Can I follow him? Can I far away from looking girls face /body? Can I do ghaddul bashor like him? MasyaAllah. So difficult.

But, minimally, I should effort to be like him eventhough it is almost imposible. 

O yeah, I forget. He very love knowledge, teaching, etc. MasyaAllah. He is real ulama.

I hope, I can read more about bioghraphy of ulama. They are so amazing.

Surabaya, December 25, 2015