#58

Alhamdulillah, finally I can write here. Really, I am so happy when I write here. Why? Because writing here is not easy. It is depend on my heart. If my heart wants, so I will write. But if my heart doesn’t want, so I will not write.

My brother, I have finished reading a novel that’s written by Habiburrahman el-Shirazy or kang Abik. In that novel he told about life of Badiuzzaman Said Nursi from Turkey. Subhanallah, masyaAllah. When I read his life I want to follow him but it is very difficult. Almost imposible. 

He is very smart. He is genius. He can memorize what he read eventhough only read once. He can dominate many books only 3 months, but for other people need 15 years to understand it. He also don’t only study about hadits, fiqih, etc but also about technology, etc.

But something amazing that I get, he keep himself from girls very carefully. He never look girls face for keeping his heart and his knowledge. He ever stay for at about 2 years in one of government official house, but he doesn’t know his daughters face. He very keep ghaddul bashor. MasyaAllah.

Then I look myself. Can I follow him? Can I far away from looking girls face /body? Can I do ghaddul bashor like him? MasyaAllah. So difficult.

But, minimally, I should effort to be like him eventhough it is almost imposible. 

O yeah, I forget. He very love knowledge, teaching, etc. MasyaAllah. He is real ulama.

I hope, I can read more about bioghraphy of ulama. They are so amazing.

Surabaya, December 25, 2015