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My brother, I decide to write my diary in this blog since today. Usually, I write in my diary book. But finally I decide to write in this lovely blog too. One of my reason is, in order I get good habit in writing English and can be read by other people. May be, other person can advantage and inspiration from my writing. If  I only write in my diary book, only me who take advantage. So, inshaAllah I will write my diary in this blog in future, not only today. Bu it doesn’t mean that I don’t write again in my diary book. Sometimes I write here, and sometimes I will write in my diary book. InshaAllah.

My brother, somedays ago, I get confusing in choosing department of study in my post-graduate. Aqidah or Shariah Economy. If I choose ‘Aqidah’ I will study in Darussalam University (ISID/UNIDA), Gontor and if I choose ‘Shariah Economy’ I will study in State Islamic University of Sunan Ampel Surabaya (UINSA). Finally, I decide to choose Shariah Economy in UINSA.

For the first time, I tend to study in ISID. Why? Because I have studied there for 1 semester (1 month) when I joined ‘Program Kaderisai Ulama” (PKU). Who join this program can continoue his study (post-graduate) in ISID after joining test. Alhamdulillah in that time I am received. But I can’t continue directly because I must take my duty in my institution (Islamic College of Luqman Al-Hakim/STAIL Surabaya).

Actually, my duty in this lovely institution should be done for 5 years. But we can continue our study after  2 years. So this way, in this year I have target to continue my study in Aqidah by taking ‘Aqidah’ department. After make some lobbying and ‘approaching’ to my teacher and my senior, I get some conclusion. First, they get objection if I study in ISID, because it mean that I should leave my duty in Panceng, Gresik (second campus of STAIL Surabaya) because ISID is so far from Panceng. The question is, who will take my position in Panceng? Eventhough one of lecturer who has responsible in Panceng give me permission and said to me that he will look for someone to change me for a while, but the lecturers in Surabaya still get objection.

 And than, if I continue my study in ISID, so I will take “Aqidah” departmen. They said that it is not suitable with institution/campushey said  need. It will not give many advantage in STAIL. They said that I should department that is suitable with instituon need. This campus will open new department, that is “Shariah Economy”. So, indirectly they hope me to take deparment in Shariah Economy or Shariah.

Finally, I decide to choose Shariah economy in UINSA Surabaya. If I study here I still can do my duty in Panceng, Gresik because panceng and Surabaya is not so far. For the first time, I am not sure when I register min UINSA with my friend. Still not 100%. May be still 50%. But after I did sharing with my friends and asatidz (teachers) it grow, may be at about 70%-80%. Or may be 90% :) . The most important, it’s not 100%. Yeah,  I am still not sure. But bismillah, it is for instituion. (Actually, my consideration is not only because of instition, but because other consideration, like fund, time, etc)

My brother, I get some suggestion and motivation from my friends, sister, and teacher when I ask them about my decision in taking ‘Shariah Economy’ Department. Those are:

1.       Aqidah department and shariah department are good. We will get reward if we study in these department

2.      Both of them are Allah science/knowledge that can make near with Him.

3.      The most important is we enjoy and serious in study

4.      Should pray to Allah and ask parent to pray for us

5.      May be it can be applicated in my life (be entrepeneur, not only lecturer/ not only science/knowledge)

6.      If we have positif thinking, it will be easy

The most important, I have decided. As my one of teacher said, after I make decision, don’t turn to anoher one. Be focus.

Hm...I should make my beliefe/confidence/decision in my heart 100%, not like now. Bu alhamdulillah, just now I read writing of Muhaimin Iqbal about shariah economy in hidayatullah.com. I also copied his other writings in my laptop.

 I hope I can give the best. Ya Allah, please forgive me, help me, and guide me. Amiin.

Surabaya,  July 05, 2014